I walked into the stadium knowing what was about to happen. I knew what I had done. Everyone did. It wasn’t even true but i had leaked it for the whole world to see. Of course that wasn’t what I wanted but it was only for the best, apart from the fact that it was going to ruin my reputation. Why did I do it to myself? Well that’s simple. I had no other choice. I couldn’t let my parents down. I couldn’t bear to disappoint them with the cold hard truth that their only son was into gymnastics. They have always hated the idea of me doing gymnastics. They say it isn’t right. “Men aren’t supposed to do girly things such as gymnastics”. How did I get into gymnastics you may ask? Well, they let me start out doing it for fun with some friends, but the more I did it, the more my love for it grew and the more serious I got about it, the less support they gave me. That’s why I did what I did. For them. They are the ones that gave me life and I am so grateful for everything that they have ever done for me. I would give them the world and more if I could. That is why I set myself up for failure. For them. I put them before myself. Before my own wants. It was the right thing to do.

I continue to walk into the main area in the gymnasium, head spinning like a beyblade one step at a time. My thoughts endlessly turn and create a mess in my head. The closer I get to the main area, the more rapidly my heart beats. I can feel every beat faster and stronger than the previous one. Now each step felt as if I was leading myself to my own death and I can feel deep regret slowly start to rise through my stomach. “This isn’t how it should be” a little voice in my head tells me. “This is your own fate. Your own life. Not your parents’. But there was no turning back. I could only look forward from now on.

As I enter the main building, I see faces. A lot of faces and about half a dozen pairs of eyes. Looking. Staring. At me. Some of their faces looked nice but mostly, they were cold and scary. I get closer to them, however they seem to look like they’re getting further and further away. Everything slowly starts to get blurry and all of their faces start to mush together. Then nothing. I see nothing. Nothing but blackness. Darkness, all around me. Surrounding me. Suffocating me. Darkness.

My mind takes me places. To my “happy places” I guess. It takes me back to